My Mission Statement

My mission statement:

I will strive to be the woman that God has intended for me to be
By loving God and loving others
By serving God and serving others, practicing hospitality
And by creating a home environment that is warm and welcoming

I will be continually preparing myself for the purpose that God has called me to fulfill,
Preparing to be a lovely wife and a mother whose children admire her
And whose husband has full confidence in her
And will study and learn from older women
Who have already gained wisdom from God in these areas

I will wait patiently for the man that God has for my future.
I will pray for him and prepare myself for him,
Guarding my heart and emotions, and keeping myself pure,
In preparation for the man whom God considers worthy of my heart

I will live by faith, trusting that God has prepared in advance good works for me to do.
I will set about these works vigorously.
I will be devoted to God, and by His grace, live a life that is pleasing to Him.
I will be dependent upon Him for counsel and mercy,
As I strive to bring Him glory and honor all the days of my life

A Time for Everything

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace."
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Following these verses is my most favorite thing about the whole chapter. It says in verse 11, "He has made everything beautiful in its time."

It seems like a simple concept, but I found encouragement in this tonight. Starting a quarter is truly a season of completely new activities. As I look back upon the beauty of last quarter...a time of mending, weeping, giving up, silence, and healing...I praise the Lord for making those times beautiful. I am also excited for this new season, hopefully one of building, embracing, laughing, dancing and peace. I do not know what this season holds, but I cling to the hope that God will make it all beautiful!
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'Man does, indeed, need a radical change of heart;
he needs to begin to hate his sin instead of loving it,
and to love God instead of hating him; he needs, in a word,
to be reconciled to God. And the place, above all others,
where this change takes place is at the foot of the cross,
when he apprehends something of the hatred of God for sin
and his indescribable love for the sinner.'

- J.N.D. Anderson

What in the world?!

Ohhhkkay...so I'm a bit in shock about my evening. I guess there is a first time for everything. Let me start at the beginning. I finally went to see 'The Lord of the Rings' tonight with my family. So I offered to take a book and wait for hours in an obnoxiously long line while my sister and parents shopped and walked around. We bought tickets, and off I went to sit in line. After waiting in line for hours we finally got let into the theater. My family joined me and we waited another forty-five minutes in the theater. Then the movie began. The theater was full and their must have been fifteen previews before the film actually started. We were watching the movie, which was very good by the way, and all of a sudden we hear yelling coming from some guys in the back of the theater. I have no idea what they are yelling about, only that it had absolutely nothing to do with the movie and that is wasn't very nice words they were using with each other. Then after a few minutes of yelling back and forth they decide they should fight with their fists, just right there in the isle of the movie theater, with a full theater of people, attempting to watch a movie they paid nine dollars for and waited hours in line to see. So the guys were fighting and someone yelled something about a gun and then women and children began to flee from the theater. Finally the manager of the theater comes in with many employees and they ask everyone to calm down, turn the movie off, and break up the fight. Once they got the fighters out of the theater, the manager apologized and assured us we would all get free tickets as we exited the show. (Can you believe that over 200 people got free tickets because some stupid punks decided to fight in a movie?!) He explained that there was no rewind button, because it is film and therefore whatever we missed, was missed and they would start the movie from where it left off. People calmed down, the movie continued, and then we all got free tickets, but it was one of the strangest, most immature things I have ever witnessed. I just thought I would share that exciting, interesting event. That's all I have time for tonight though. I haven't been feeling very well, so it's back to recovering and resting so hopefully my headache and sore throat go away before Christmas. Happy Sunday!
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'The prison has been stormed,
and the gates of the prison have been opened,
but unless we leave our prison cells and
go forward into the light of freedom,
we are still unredeemed in actuality.'

-Donald Bloesch

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'If God speaks to us at all other than through such official channels as the Bible and the church, then I think that he speaks to us largely through what happens to us...if we keep our hearts and minds open as well as our ears, if we listen with patience and hope, if we remember at all deeply and honestly, then I think we come to recognize, beyond all doubt, that, however faintly we may hear him, he is indeed speaking to us, and that, however little we may understand of it, his word to each of us is both recoverable and precious beyond telling.'

Have you ever wondered why God gives so much?

Have you ever wondered why God gives so much? We could exist on far less. He could have left the world flat and gray; we wouldn't have known the difference. But he didn't.

'He splashed orange in the sunrise
and cast the sky in blue.
And if you love to see geese as they gather,
chances are you'll see that too.

Did he have to make the squirrel's tail furry?
Was he obliged to make the birds sing?
And the funny way that chickens scurry
or the majesty of thunder when it rings?

Why give a flower fragrance? Why give food its taste?
Could it be
he loves to see
that look upon your face?'

-Max Lucado
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Sweet Home California

I am finally home...after traveling for six days. I finished my finals on Tuesday, drove to Spokane on Wednesday morning, drove back from Spokane to the Seattle airport on Friday, flew to San Fransisco, and finally today I flew home. Needless to say, it has been a long week. I cannot believe how fast this quarter has gone by and what a difficult one it has been. God is at work though, and I am so excited to have this time of reflection now that I am home and settled with no commitments for the next couple of weeks. It is always so nice to feel as if you don't have to make extra time for resting in God and learning from Him, but rather all of your time can be for resting in God and you might have to squeeze other things in. I'm not sure if I said that the way I am thinking it, but hopefully you understand what I mean. Either way, I am very glad to be having this break time, especially to celebrate the birth of Jesus.
Spokane...was so wonderful! Arianna and I went to visit Spencer and his roommates. They were still finishing up their finals, so we cooked for them and cleaned and just wanted to bless them as they were finishing up their stressful semesters. They were mostly physics majors, so I can say with great confidence that their finals were much more difficult than mine. It was nice to spend some time away from Seattle and with men who actually knew how to treat us like ladies. I have almost forgotten what it is like to be treated the way God would like me to be treated by a man. It slightly restored my hope in men. I am finding that is the one thing that I am pessimistic about. Not so much on a personal level. I know that God wants to bless me and provide for the desires that He has placed in my heart. It may take a long time, but I know that God has a man for me. I am just disappointed and sad for the way that men are in general today. I feel that the gentlemeness and chivalry that should exist in men is missing. I'm not sure where it has gone to, but it makes me sad. Anyhow, it was a wonderful time. It was such a blessing to be able to spend so much time with Arianna before I left. We had wonderful and equally difficult conversations during our twelve hours of driving. These two people from our pasts seemed to be coming up quite frequently as we exchanged memories. It is so hard when one person is in so many memories. Especially when you aren't making memories with them anymore. Either way, the time Arianna and I had together was too short. I wish we could've stayed in Spokane for at least a few more days, but I had a wedding to be at...so off we drove to get me to the airport.
I barely made it to the airport after a missing key adventure, but I made it and flew into San Fransisco Friday night. I have this amazing friend in my life who happens to live in San Fran. She is so wonderful that she picked me up from the airport, let me stay at her house, let me borrow her car on Saturday for the wedding, and then took me to the airport today for my flight home. I couldn't have been more blessed! The wedding was indescribably one of the most beautiful things I have ever witnessed. If you know this couple, you might understand. First of all, the church was beautiful. There were windows on one side and as the pastor was saying an opening prayer, inviting God to be a part of the union, the rain was beating against the windows with such awesome power and sound. It was as if God was making His presence known. The ceremony was beautiful. They had songs sung by sisters and brothers, a poem that Laura wrote to her father...thanking him for keeping her pure, the message, scripture reading, vows, and the first kiss. It was incredible. I have never known a couple who I have actually admired the way that I admire Laura and Scott. They have set a very good example of what a Christian courtship and relationship should look like before marriage. They have remained so pure and faithful in their love with one another, always making sure God was walking with them in their relationship. It was such a blessing for me to witness their union into marriage. I couldn't help but be emotional. I felt like the whole week had been a romantic and emotional week, so this just topped it all off. After the wedding we all got in our cars and drove 45 minutes in a storm to get to the reception hall. I have never seen such a beautiful room. I really shouldn't go so much into detail about everything, but let me just say that it was amazing. We had a little SPU table, which was fun because I got to spend some time with SPU guys (friends of Scott) that I hadn't really gotten to before. The food was amazing, the dancing, the celebrating, watching Laura and Scott together as husband and wife...it was wonderful. They left about 8:30 for 'bigger things' as Scott announced, and the rest of us stayed and danced until nine. Then we piled in cars and went to Jason's house for a fun game and fellowship. It was nice to be with my old girl friends again. I miss them so much. I left and headed back to Sarah's around 1am, and then had a wonderful conversation with her. I wish I had had a bit more energy, but I spoke with what I had and I left today wishing I had more time with her. Although I really wanted to be home at the same time.
So, in summary...the quarter has been the hardest quarter, more emotionally than academically, that I have had so far...but God is faithful and is at work in my heart, so I wouldn't take back one second of it. I am however, glad it is over, and glad to have time at home to reflect and respond to the work that God has been doing this quarter. The wedding was definitely something that God and His angels were throwing a party about in heaven, rejoicing over the covenant made between His children that have been loving and serving Him. My time in Spokane and with Arianna was refreshing. The more I spend time with her, the more I see what true friendship should look like. That's all I have for tonight. It is way past my bedtime. I will attempt to make shorter entries more frequently over the break, but this one needed to catch me up. Goodnight
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Long time...no journal

It's been awhile...haha! I guess that once school started, I got too busy for my loyal journal fans...which is most likely no one. But hey, I feel like I can spare five minutes tonight. I have had a wonderful day! It's been one of those days when I didn't do much of anything, but enjoyed every moment. My roommate went shopping with her good friend and is spending the night downtown at her place, which means I have had the apartment all to myself. This means that I get silly. I take really long showers, take a very long time getting ready...curling my hair, putting on makeup (things I don't do all that often). And then I sing...all day...very loudly. I sing sing sing! I sometimes dance too, but I won't go into much about that. So, I've had a wonderful day. I also have had a wonderful first couple weeks of school. I started off somewhat uneasy, but I feel like I have everything in place somewhat. I have my schedule down, and I am on top of most of my reading. I did the most fun thing last week. I go to Bible study at Jonna's house on Tuesdays, and she has six children, three of them girls. So, after Bible study her daughters and I played dress up! Yes, I know I'm 20, but I couldn't help it. I really wanted to get pretty in big fluffy dresses. They picked out my dress, and then I let them (them being an 8 year old and a 10 year old) do my makeup and hair. You can imagine I looked really good...haha. So, that's been my fun blessing these past couple weeks. God provided love, fun and giggles for me when I needed it most. I had been having a horrible day before that. Someone had said some very hurtful, not to mention untrue things about me and it had me in a sad mood. So this was the perfect ending to a rotten day...in a good sense. Um...that's about it. I am currently preparing myself for Bible study tomorrow night. I am leading a Bible study with younger girls on campus. I make them dinner on Sunday nights and we are studying this really neat book called Her Name Is Woman. Each chapter is about a different woman in the Bible and what we can learn from her relationship with God. It's a very interesting book. Anyhow, I should probably get back to reading it. I'll write again when I get some time. Bye bye!
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So excited!!!

I am so excited!!! I start class on Monday, which isn't in itself exciting, but I love the idea of actually having structure in my life again. I basically have something going on Monday through Wednesday from 9:30am until 9pm. The end of my week is a bit more relaxed. I have a womens study on 2 Timothy at my church in the mornings, which I am very excited about, and then one class in the early afternoon. Anyhow, I'm sure you are all very curious to hear about my schedule and everything, but all I meant to say was that I have one starting Monday, after not having a schedule for two months and I am excited about it. This week was so wonderful. I got to spend some time with my mentor and her family. Basically, I got to observe and help a mother of six at work. I decided that six children really doesn't seem like that many...I could definitely have nine or so. hehe. Yes, I know I'm insane. Anyhow, I had such a fun time getting to know her children and husband better. I have spent some time with her and this time I spent the evening getting to know the children. Jonna (my mentor) and Paul (her husband) had friends over, another couple, for dessert and after the children went to bed we just sat up at talked until midnight. It was very interesting to participate in an adult conversation with people in their forties. Not that there is anything wrong with adult conversation, it's just not something I get a chance to do very often living surrounded by people in their early twenties. I realized how little I know about politics and past presidents, etc. It was fun to hear them discuss things that were going on when I was a child and relate that to current situations and people. So...enough about that. My roommate was supposed to move in today, but she didn't. I haven't heard from her, so I'm curious to see when she will actually show up. I'm glad that I am settled though. I saw Sweet Home Alabama last night. It was a cute movie. I just love Reese Witherspoon. She has been a favorite of mine for years. If you haven't seen The Man in the Moon, you should. I'm feeling boring, so I'm going to stop writing now. If I think of anything interesting, I'll update later. Ta-ta for now...
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